Struggling

Yesterday I still didn't feel 100% so I did nothing, other than feel guilty about doing nothing! Today I had another long lie but at 7.15 I was trying to persuade myself to get up and get on the bike. I didn't want to but knew that missing another days training was a slippery slope.
I dragged myself up and onto the turbo trainer, the first time in about 6 months. It is an implement of torture but you have to block that thought out. I did a hill rep set due to my event in September. The sweat was pouring off me and at the end I felt light headed but was glad not to have turned over in bed.
Maintaining motivation for long periods of time is difficult and this underlines why I need to get my plan formalised with my coach for Lanza in May. That way I will have the focus required to reduce these periods of laziness and negativity but at the same time I appreciate that my body needed the rest. Just have to make sure I don't overdo the rest!